So I awoke to more whining and fighting this morning. When the boys get like this it puts me in a 'funk'. I find myself pining over care free pre-kids days when spontaneity was the order of the day. When we could just be and not worry about how our actions are moulding personalities that might or might not end up having issues as adults one day.
When I'm feeling this way I know it's best to keep my interactions with the boys to a minimum. I prefer to retreat to my safe haven in my head where I don't have to be teaching them to share or shouting at them for fighting. If I spend an hour with them today without any shouting then my mission is accomplished. I know my limits these days. I know when I need to withdraw before I become that mother that is grumpy and would rather be somewhere else.
I'm so glad that I'll be at work for a full day tomorrow. I've even rewarded myself with a day off work so I can indulge in all things Nasima. Thursday will be 'Me Day'
By Friday I should be liking the monsters again. Just enough to get me through the weekend as a Happy Mom ;)
Yours truly
Nasima
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Tuesday, 23 April 2013
Monday, 22 April 2013
Just one of those days
My job is emotionally taxing. I have patients booked back to back every 30 mins and each person requires something different of me emotionally. Not only do I need to provide a good service I also need to have a good bedside manner so that I can create a good rapport with them. Some of them are easy going and some just literally suck the life out of me. They walk in with a brick wall around them and a negative energy that permeates my surgery and drains me.
I leave work most days happy. I love what I do. It's challenging and rewarding. Some days I just leave there not wanting to engage with anyone else. Well this poses a problem as I have 2 kids you see. Anees talks non stop once he gets in the car. The fighting starts when we walk in the door. Rameez has a few new toys and as you can imagine the one wants what the other touches and vice versa. It's enough to just make me want to scream and actually wish that I was still at work. So I watch the clock anxiously waiting for 6pm when Zaid walks through the door and I can escape to the gym.
I remember watching the clock when I was on maternity leave with Anees too. Being couped up with a baby all day drove me insane. Yes they're cute and all that but I'm a verbal person and would much rather have you tell me what you want then try to decipher your needs by your different cries. I don't do the 'baby stage' well. With Anees I took 6 months maternity leave and with Rameez 4 months. I've decided that 2 months will be sufficient with the next child. LOL.
A patient of mine is pregnant with her 5th child. I'm happy for her but I feel physically and violently ill if I have to think of myself pregnant 5 times. Why the need to have 5 children? I don't understand. A family with 2 kids feels complete. If I had my pigeon pair I think our family would be complete. There is an equal parent to child ratio and things are manageable. The only reason we want a 3rd is because of my yearning for a daughter. When we got married we initially wanted 4 kids. That was until we had 1 and then 2 and then realized how much work they are.
There I said it. Sometimes it feels like work.(No, I lie! Its actually easier to be at work, amongst adults) They're asleep now. Thank Goodness. Lets hope tomorrow is a better day for all of us ;)
I leave work most days happy. I love what I do. It's challenging and rewarding. Some days I just leave there not wanting to engage with anyone else. Well this poses a problem as I have 2 kids you see. Anees talks non stop once he gets in the car. The fighting starts when we walk in the door. Rameez has a few new toys and as you can imagine the one wants what the other touches and vice versa. It's enough to just make me want to scream and actually wish that I was still at work. So I watch the clock anxiously waiting for 6pm when Zaid walks through the door and I can escape to the gym.
I remember watching the clock when I was on maternity leave with Anees too. Being couped up with a baby all day drove me insane. Yes they're cute and all that but I'm a verbal person and would much rather have you tell me what you want then try to decipher your needs by your different cries. I don't do the 'baby stage' well. With Anees I took 6 months maternity leave and with Rameez 4 months. I've decided that 2 months will be sufficient with the next child. LOL.
A patient of mine is pregnant with her 5th child. I'm happy for her but I feel physically and violently ill if I have to think of myself pregnant 5 times. Why the need to have 5 children? I don't understand. A family with 2 kids feels complete. If I had my pigeon pair I think our family would be complete. There is an equal parent to child ratio and things are manageable. The only reason we want a 3rd is because of my yearning for a daughter. When we got married we initially wanted 4 kids. That was until we had 1 and then 2 and then realized how much work they are.
There I said it. Sometimes it feels like work.(No, I lie! Its actually easier to be at work, amongst adults) They're asleep now. Thank Goodness. Lets hope tomorrow is a better day for all of us ;)
Monday, 15 April 2013
H&H, where my career began and I met the man of my dreams
For those of you who don't know, I'm a dental hygienist. Have been for the last 9 years. It's not the route I had planned though. I kinda fell into it. I wanted to be a hairdresser and my parents would hear none of it! They wanted me to be a doctor!
So I set off to Wits and started with a BSc, after my first year I realized it wasn't for me. So I swopped to a BA with a major in Psychology and International Relations. My dad sadly passed away in my 2nd year. On completion I decided to take a gap year. A tad late in life I know. My brother in law is a dentist and he offered me a position as a receptionist and then accounts clerk. My main function was capturing and submitting medical aid claims and dealing with queries.
During my time there I ended up assisting my brother in law in the surgery and my interest in dentistry started. I recall fainting while watching him do a surgical extraction. (Now I can very easily eat my lunch during open flap root planing) I was keen on studying but not keen on the 4 years involved in becoming a dentist. He suggested I study Oral hygiene. My brother in law has always been my mentor. I turn to him for career advice and just advice in general and he has never led me astray. I've been having itchy feet to study again and after consultation with him I have decided I'd like to study hypnotherapy. Watch this space!
I actually left my admission interview crying. Prof Wessel Holtshousen was a horrible man. He drilled me for not finishing my initial degree. He wasn't keen on admitting me in case I decide not to finish studies again. At the time Wits only accepted and trained 12 oral hygienists per year. So it was tough to get in. I was deflated after the interview. I received a letter that I had been put on the waiting list and would be granted admission should the accepted applicants before me not be able to fill the position. Much to my surprise I was accepted! I've never looked back.
It's taken me 9 years to build a successful oral hygiene practice. I absolutely love the CBD. The people are humbling and inspiring and nothing beats the vibe of the inner city.
Boys you might not always know what you wanna do or where you wanna be, just listen to the universe and follow the signs around you and you will find your place in this world.
Will post soon about how I met your dad;) Will also post about the amazing people. I've met in the CBD and the long lasting friendships I've built.
Love Mom
So I set off to Wits and started with a BSc, after my first year I realized it wasn't for me. So I swopped to a BA with a major in Psychology and International Relations. My dad sadly passed away in my 2nd year. On completion I decided to take a gap year. A tad late in life I know. My brother in law is a dentist and he offered me a position as a receptionist and then accounts clerk. My main function was capturing and submitting medical aid claims and dealing with queries.
During my time there I ended up assisting my brother in law in the surgery and my interest in dentistry started. I recall fainting while watching him do a surgical extraction. (Now I can very easily eat my lunch during open flap root planing) I was keen on studying but not keen on the 4 years involved in becoming a dentist. He suggested I study Oral hygiene. My brother in law has always been my mentor. I turn to him for career advice and just advice in general and he has never led me astray. I've been having itchy feet to study again and after consultation with him I have decided I'd like to study hypnotherapy. Watch this space!
I actually left my admission interview crying. Prof Wessel Holtshousen was a horrible man. He drilled me for not finishing my initial degree. He wasn't keen on admitting me in case I decide not to finish studies again. At the time Wits only accepted and trained 12 oral hygienists per year. So it was tough to get in. I was deflated after the interview. I received a letter that I had been put on the waiting list and would be granted admission should the accepted applicants before me not be able to fill the position. Much to my surprise I was accepted! I've never looked back.
It's taken me 9 years to build a successful oral hygiene practice. I absolutely love the CBD. The people are humbling and inspiring and nothing beats the vibe of the inner city.
Boys you might not always know what you wanna do or where you wanna be, just listen to the universe and follow the signs around you and you will find your place in this world.
Will post soon about how I met your dad;) Will also post about the amazing people. I've met in the CBD and the long lasting friendships I've built.
Love Mom
Sunday, 14 April 2013
Sundaze
When did life get so busy? All of a sudden it feels like I hardly ever have downtime. Between work, gym, school meetings, study groups, CPD workshops, QT with the boys and QT with Zaid and not to mention trying to fit in time with family and friends, I find that there's just no downtime. Well today I took some much needed downtime.
You boys were ecstatic this morning when I announced I wasn't going to gym. We lied in bed and just cuddled. Rameez, you love cuddling. It's the sweetest thing. All you want from me when I get home from work or early in the morning is that I lay with you. You have this obsession with my hair. You love holding my hair when you wanna fall asleep or just when I hold you. I find it endearing most times. So you lied next to me and held my hair as you're doing now.
We lied around the house and watched tv and played and then went out to get lunch. After lunch Rameez and I had a nap. Dad even took a photo of us. I love sleeping with you next to me Rameez. You lay enveloped in my arms with your hand in my hair. I'll cherish these moments because soon you'll be like your brother. 'Mom don't lay with me,just kiss me and go'
We headed off to Delta park for the afternoon. It was a gorgeous warm Autumn afternoon.You boys loved it. We ended the day at Filo frozen yogurt.
As I lay here now I know I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day.
Xoxo
You boys were ecstatic this morning when I announced I wasn't going to gym. We lied in bed and just cuddled. Rameez, you love cuddling. It's the sweetest thing. All you want from me when I get home from work or early in the morning is that I lay with you. You have this obsession with my hair. You love holding my hair when you wanna fall asleep or just when I hold you. I find it endearing most times. So you lied next to me and held my hair as you're doing now.
We lied around the house and watched tv and played and then went out to get lunch. After lunch Rameez and I had a nap. Dad even took a photo of us. I love sleeping with you next to me Rameez. You lay enveloped in my arms with your hand in my hair. I'll cherish these moments because soon you'll be like your brother. 'Mom don't lay with me,just kiss me and go'
We headed off to Delta park for the afternoon. It was a gorgeous warm Autumn afternoon.You boys loved it. We ended the day at Filo frozen yogurt.
As I lay here now I know I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day.
Xoxo
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